picture this: You are in the middle of the cinema watching a love story with everybody around you are literally in each others' arms... what would you do?
for the 8000th time in my life I am going through this ordeal and damn do I never ever learn to avoid it. I keep on beating myself up after but never learned to digress. I was forced to freeze there and shake on my own because that damn cinema is really too cold for comfort whilst it brought out many feels when I realized that I am literally and figuratively in the middle of that situation. Being single since literally my entire life has had it's up and down. Often the questions/ judgement thrown at me are "siguro pihikan ka?" "mataas siguro standards mo?" situations at which I only return a smile at them because I am fucking tired of answering shitty questions like that because I know that I do not owe anyone an explanation. On the brighter side of things I handle my own time, I can go here and there without having to worry about anyone's approval but myself and my parents(which doesn't really weigh much anymore since they practically allow me to do anything anyway).
Last week I've randomly discussed with my best friend AJ at how I might come of as intimidating at times that's why I am still single. And so I wonder how I could change that but then naisip ko if I like the person I am meeting for the first time kahit sino pa yan I make sure that I make them feel comfortable around me, that they are welcome to talk to me and possibly be my friend. My friend replied with a message that goes like this 'you are you. fuck them you don't have to change yourself for someone to like you' -- and you know what? I actually believe that.
I am always striving to be the best person I can be. I am at all times striving to be honest, trustworthy, kind loyal and honest as I can be, promise I really am.
I have been changing myself, I have been trying my best to be active, whereas before when I used to not have plans and spend my weekdays lazing around my bed. Now I don't even have vacant weeks to spend with some of my friends. I have been exercising, investing time and money on my health. I have plans to run a marathon, buy a bike, improve my gym equipment at home. I have been improving on my craft, I have been practicing my painting, my drawing, my photography and even my ad designing capabilities.
I have been trying to improve at work, applying for promotion and stuff.
I used to love wallowing around my misery now I have trained my mind to think about how my day has been and how good the Lord is for blessing me with strength to do everything I want. I have plans to go canyoneering in Cebu in September, climb another mountain in March, go to the beach in April and all of which is for my betterment.
I wouldn't deny being on the other side of the mob for once. I wouldn't mind being double :P sana I'll get luckier this 2015 :D
for the 8000th time in my life I am going through this ordeal and damn do I never ever learn to avoid it. I keep on beating myself up after but never learned to digress. I was forced to freeze there and shake on my own because that damn cinema is really too cold for comfort whilst it brought out many feels when I realized that I am literally and figuratively in the middle of that situation. Being single since literally my entire life has had it's up and down. Often the questions/ judgement thrown at me are "siguro pihikan ka?" "mataas siguro standards mo?" situations at which I only return a smile at them because I am fucking tired of answering shitty questions like that because I know that I do not owe anyone an explanation. On the brighter side of things I handle my own time, I can go here and there without having to worry about anyone's approval but myself and my parents(which doesn't really weigh much anymore since they practically allow me to do anything anyway).
Last week I've randomly discussed with my best friend AJ at how I might come of as intimidating at times that's why I am still single. And so I wonder how I could change that but then naisip ko if I like the person I am meeting for the first time kahit sino pa yan I make sure that I make them feel comfortable around me, that they are welcome to talk to me and possibly be my friend. My friend replied with a message that goes like this 'you are you. fuck them you don't have to change yourself for someone to like you' -- and you know what? I actually believe that.
I am always striving to be the best person I can be. I am at all times striving to be honest, trustworthy, kind loyal and honest as I can be, promise I really am.
I have been changing myself, I have been trying my best to be active, whereas before when I used to not have plans and spend my weekdays lazing around my bed. Now I don't even have vacant weeks to spend with some of my friends. I have been exercising, investing time and money on my health. I have plans to run a marathon, buy a bike, improve my gym equipment at home. I have been improving on my craft, I have been practicing my painting, my drawing, my photography and even my ad designing capabilities.
I have been trying to improve at work, applying for promotion and stuff.
I used to love wallowing around my misery now I have trained my mind to think about how my day has been and how good the Lord is for blessing me with strength to do everything I want. I have plans to go canyoneering in Cebu in September, climb another mountain in March, go to the beach in April and all of which is for my betterment.
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| I mean come on! WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE?? |
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| right? |
I wouldn't deny being on the other side of the mob for once. I wouldn't mind being double :P sana I'll get luckier this 2015 :D
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