what did I do to deserve this.

3am, way past my bed time, I am sleepy too but I'm afraid to close my eyes. Since Friday when that unexpected moment happened where I got to hang out alone with you, since then... I cannot stop dreaming of you. I absolutely despise it! I mean, it's already bad enough that I think of you all the time. I feel like I deserve to skip the torture of dreaming of the state of things that we could be. I hate that I see it vividly, I hear your voice saying my name and your arrogant ass is there like you're not going away. The part I hate the most is waking up, shocked that I dreamt of you again, sad that it will never happen.

prom

PROM

Just for tonight I wish to be yours
I want you to hold me and don’t let go

Just for tonight I wish to be in your arms
Just be secured right by your side

Just tonight I want you to be with me
Focused your attention on me and leave the world be


Just for tonight I wanna feel what its like to dance with you to
Look into your eyes while we drift slowly

.....

STOP!

Wake up to the morning sun
forget the past and start from one
relinquish not, memories from way back
Yes, going further leads you off track

STOP!

Turn around come back to me
dont let our love be a memory

scarred from the battle we fought
as to loving became a second thought

barred from understanding what's in front of us
we struggle for answers
were still at lost

round we go along with the beat
as we survive through cold and heat
walking 'til were strangers to who we are
time has taken us too far

so STOP!
I changed my mind
just give me back my heart

MMR 2012