what did I do to deserve this.

3am, way past my bed time, I am sleepy too but I'm afraid to close my eyes. Since Friday when that unexpected moment happened where I got to hang out alone with you, since then... I cannot stop dreaming of you. I absolutely despise it! I mean, it's already bad enough that I think of you all the time. I feel like I deserve to skip the torture of dreaming of the state of things that we could be. I hate that I see it vividly, I hear your voice saying my name and your arrogant ass is there like you're not going away. The part I hate the most is waking up, shocked that I dreamt of you again, sad that it will never happen.

Contradictions

I want you to know me
but then I don't
I want you to want me
I can't look at your eyes for long
but I hate it when you're not looking
I like you for all the wrong reasons
and hate you for all the right ones
I like you
You don't feel the same
Plain simple

--MMR2015

Awake

I stare at you then look away
Like you were there but I don't care
Cause
You bore a hole into my soul
I think of you, that's all I know

I slick and slap and twist and tap
Watching the clock go tick and tock
Cause
I wallow in when you're not here
But when you're near, I cant think clear

You stare so deep I fear you see
How much I yearn, How much I heed
Your fingers interlacing mine
To kiss your lips that's so divine

Awake, I dream of you and me.
Awake, is when the truth be told:
A dream is just a dream is just a dream
An illusion: that's nothing real.

--MMR 2015

Distraction

You were a mere distraction to my endless complication. Nothing serious. But tell you what: that mere distraction to be frank, is what keeps me alive.

It keeps my fire burning when all is dark.

So yeah, nothing serious. Really.



--MMR2015